Anxiety- it is a bitch. Anyone of the many who have it feel my pain. I'll be open right now, it's not easy. About August 22nd or 23rd, 2005 I received my first bass and started playing it. Years later, I completely taught myself. Learned how to do sweep arpeggios myself, learned a chunk of music theory myself, played in a couple serious bands. This year was my 7 year anniversary, but I haven't touched my bass in maybe 2 years give or take. One day, my anxiety just...took the fun away from playing, and since then, it's felt like a chore to play. It feels like a chore/a big weight just to THINK about playing. The same has happened to me and making banners and other stuff in photoshop. It's been like that since early this year. The nights are especially tough on me. The evening is when I'm attacked by random, unprovoked emotions, often I'll break down and cry, things along those lines. I have to admit though, bitching about it has made me feel a little better about it.
Anyways, to the gist of this journal. I have a dump of about 9 pictures give or take to upload. A number of them are presents from my birthday last Tuesday, and some aren't; just stuff I've neglected to upload because Mr. Anxiety has made it feel like a chore. The anxiety's starting to pour into my RP past time... I'm a ref over at my frequented site, The Arena: Universal Clash, and the past month or so, judging these matches has felt like hard work when it really isn't. The soonest I've judged a match I've reffed in the past month or two is about 7-8 days. Starting tonight and going into tomorrow, I'll be doing the mass upload. Then to come are the stats for a few certain specimens.
So, keep an eye out. HayesAJones and I are working on an Oophaga revamp, and so far the ideas are jolly. Right now, I'm off to enjoy the Dinobot DLC for Transformers: Fall of Cybertron with InfernoRodan. Toodles.